puddle put a smile on my face!

as i held open my umbrella....

i couldn't help but smile,

smile at the drizzle that greeted me

greeted me at the door...

at the door i stood gazing up the sky...

up the sky....the clouds were gray...

grey and gloomy... hey!

hey... cheer up guys... its raining...

raining it is indeed....

blup!... oops i made a puddle!

puddle i looked down at and saw the ripples...

ripples that was so effervescent!...

so magnificient! so captivating...

and even more reason to smile...

oops, i made another one and jumped a beat as if i were a little child

little child making the first puddle...

then i thought!... why!

why open the umbrella....

take in the rain... soak in the game...

sing a song and dance a beat...

make the day of the onlookers by your energy!

today it rained... tomorrow! who knows!...

take in the rain... for it may never come!

A proud moment - of a mother

A proud moment - of a mother

tears welled when i first set eyes on you
as i made the connection i felt a whimper in my heart
so happy and so excited that my voice quelched
suddenly stricken with anger as i could not move to hold you dear
but the sight of fragile self lead the way for a tear to fall from my eyes
i reached but in vain...
reached again and managed
managed to brush against your little finger
making my heart yearn for more...
i looked up and saw him.... smiling...
no one else but him... i smiled, however weak...
and made a gesture of thanks and happiness...
the feeling was indescribable....
and as i tried to express more, i slowly passed out...


This scribble is about my experience and the feeling i had when i first saw my baby. After c-section, I was barely able to move and all the laughing gases that i had inhaled earlier to get past my pain was catching up with me as i passed in and out of consciousness. But the experience was great! A tear never escapes, even after years, when i recount that special moment!

The effect of EGO on life

It was small...Na!... it wasn't even there...

Once the moment of recognition grows in you...

It starts to creep....

It was minute... barely visible...

Suppressable... delicate

As you fed it,

It became voluptuous...

Ha... but not in an attractive way

As you nurtured it...It became tall... strong....

Sway it will never...Coz' you aint gonna let it....

The more you feed it...The more you nurture....

The needier it becomes!

The more it grows... the more it builds!

Now! It's Big... It's huge...Yucks!... its creepy....

It bites your mind... dulls your sight...

It makes you heart bulge with need...

Brimm with pride...

And one day!...it will burst...leaving you alone...

The very hand that fed it...Made it strong... Made it Big!

For you will find lonliness...
Sadness... vengence...Fear....

And you will find... no one near...

for that much was the effect of your Ego!

Again the cycle will repeat...

With a new you or with a new who

Overcoming You! Oh! Grief....

Lost in thoughts
There is no reason
Troubled heart
There is no reason
Weeping eyes
There is no reason
Trembling fingers
There is no reason
Words can't utter
There is no reason
Grief...
Clouding thoughts and reasoning
Makes me wonder what good it brings
To lose myself for no reason
Happenings.. can't control...
Beyond control of human intervention
How?... there is no way out?
Prevention or Perseverence to block it...
The way out is two...
Decision needs to be made
to erase, repeal or reduce, if not rid!
Before it engulfs my future...
My life and My soul
and existence!