Still, I feel like believing you!
Be The Author Of Your Life
The boon and the wrath
True purpose of Life!
you need to rise, to evolve and to find purpose,
puddle put a smile on my face!
A proud moment - of a mother
tears welled when i first set eyes on you
as i made the connection i felt a whimper in my heart
so happy and so excited that my voice quelched
suddenly stricken with anger as i could not move to hold you dear
but the sight of fragile self lead the way for a tear to fall from my eyes
i reached but in vain...
reached again and managed
managed to brush against your little finger
making my heart yearn for more...
i looked up and saw him.... smiling...
no one else but him... i smiled, however weak...
and made a gesture of thanks and happiness...
the feeling was indescribable....
and as i tried to express more, i slowly passed out...
This scribble is about my experience and the feeling i had when i first saw my baby. After c-section, I was barely able to move and all the laughing gases that i had inhaled earlier to get past my pain was catching up with me as i passed in and out of consciousness. But the experience was great! A tear never escapes, even after years, when i recount that special moment!
The effect of EGO on life
Sadness... vengence...Fear....
Overcoming You! Oh! Grief....
Lost in thoughts
There is no reason
Troubled heart
There is no reason
Weeping eyes
There is no reason
Trembling fingers
There is no reason
Words can't utter
There is no reason
Grief...
Clouding thoughts and reasoning
Makes me wonder what good it brings
To lose myself for no reason
Happenings.. can't control...
Beyond control of human intervention
How?... there is no way out?
Prevention or Perseverence to block it...
The way out is two...
Decision needs to be made
to erase, repeal or reduce, if not rid!
Before it engulfs my future...
My life and My soul
and existence!
To Break Free!
Love is a potion... for you
A poison... for me...
It took a while for me to realize...
Ignorance was a bliss and realization a spark...
I prefer the latter even though heart longs for the bliss...
Heart... you are so captured by hatred
And that realization is killing...
Wake... O wake... let the blood gush through your veins..
Soak in the new sun... Lose yourself in the sparkle...
Soon you will realize...
It was nothing...
It is nothing...
And it will never be anything...
The soul will eventually be free...
Free of all sins... all desires... all hatred...
That is a promise, i seek from God.. the almighty...
That One day... I will be free...
O heart.. from you!
Creator! A Favor!
a favor...
without you... will i be able to live...
how will i convey this to you...
a favor...make me alone again...
unfinished sentences and lonely nights...
what were they meant to be...
were they to seperate or for us to break free...
lonlines...will i be able to bear...
tears... will i be able to weep..
a favor...do me a favor...
make me alone again...
you are not around but your feel lingers
my elylids still shimmer with your kiss...
fingertips quiver with your touch...
breath breathless with your breath...
tell me a way to erase the thoughts...
a favor...do me a favor...
make me alone again...
the daylight is asleep...
the killing night is silent....
the clouds unaware of my lonliness....
will not be able to bear...without you...
will i be not able to live...
a favor...do me a favor...
make me alone again...
A bad dream or a dream come true...
why is there a conflict of thoughts in my feelings...
why did we come together..
why did we part ways...
is this a punishment or a blessing...
All promises broken and dreams shattered...
maybe a new life with new dreams and new promises...
O creator! a favor...
do me a favor..make me alone again...
Wahi
Realization!
I gazed up, into your eyes
Not a word...
Not a word dare I say,
And the time stood afroze
As I took in the glass gaze,
So full of anger and hate!
I realized I had lost!
Lost the battle of faith and prayers!
For I had lost my love
To the game of love itself!
And an even greater realization gripped me
Tore me apart!
O God! even you have penned
Penned that I live
And live with no love at all!