Still, I feel like believing you!

Still, I feel like believing you!
You have hurt me, time and again
Promised me, time and again
Lied to me, time and again
Oh my! how hurt i had felt, how much i wept!
You had broken my heart and tore my trust to bits,
time and again
But, I am so in love and hopeful that,
I still feel like believing you!
Deep down I know you will fail me, again
Still, I feel like believing you!
Heart knows that you don't mean a single word you mouth
Still, I feel like believing you!
Wahi

Be The Author Of Your Life

Be The Author Of Your Life
Born to live, born to lead,
You can fulfill your every need
Eject the negatives from your mind,
Play the light and joyous moments - rewind
Connect with nature,
Else there is no future
Consume the best,
for the health
Within yourself there is remedy,
for every whimps and quirms
You will find answers lying deep,
within your reach
Vett your hunger,
for the knowledge
Keep the pace,
for the heart
Smile a while and chide the blues,
for what they are you have no clue
Be the author of your life
Wahi

The boon and the wrath

The boon and the wrath
Love, deceit, compasssion,trust, hurt,
All have but one thing in common
They are all feelings,
expressions with deep passion
They can enlighten you in their warmth
where you can bask and glow
or
They can burn you in their agony
where you will shrivel and wither
Nothing can be so unnatural as common place
As are the feelings that is so near and dear to all
They are valid expressions and are needed feeling
for all species
But nature has a way of making even the most natural things unnatural
Whether mind takes over heart
or
Heart takes over mind,
Time has told and will tell
They can produce the most outre consequences
such that
even the worst terror will pale in comparison


wahi

True purpose of Life!

True purpose of Life!
Formations may fall but the spirit lives
In the hearts, the minds and the way of life,
the spirit is alive and rekindling ever so bright
when the going gets hectic and,
the surfaces turn thorny,
you know you will never give up,
coz your mind is made of steel and,
steel, though malleable, is not breakable!
so, let free, let go, and evolve
and always emerge an inch stronger than ever!
emotions have no part to play even though
emotions keep the spirit alive
Sedentary lifestyle kills!
The devil voice is easy to follow...
hey let it be! what good is it to change!
lay there and be lazy!
sounds tempting and, what's more, easy
but hey, Sedentary lifestyle kills!
As a true intelligent being,
you need to rise, to evolve and to find purpose,
you may win or lose, but the lesson is more important!
the question is not what where when...
the question is why! and the answer is you and how!
formations may fall but the spirit lives
In this lifetime, you will always be faced with the question,"What is the purpose of me being here?"
And it is always not necessary to be faced with an equally compelling answer that will make you want to live the rest of life with. Eventually you will fall back to the question again.
However, the question is why do you want to live? What reason can you find to live. Or, what reason can you create so that you live and live to the fullest. The most important thing is to have a purpose and for that purpose to last, you need it have a spirit. This will ensure that even though the structure that you used to make true, the purpose, fall apart or is no longer in existent, your purpose live on.
It is always easy to fall back on laziness and leave life as it is. But remember, the decisions of life are too important and costly to leave it to chance. The very existence of you will be challenged should you not have a purpose.
The purpose may differ, the paths may vary. The results may be exhilerating or even demoralising. However, it is the lesson that matters and what you stand for. Your morals, your principle should never falter. These are called the spirits and you should always treasure and feed them in order for them to grow in value so that your legacy lives on.
Wahi

puddle put a smile on my face!

as i held open my umbrella....
i couldn't help but smile,
smile at the drizzle that greeted me
greeted me at the door...
at the door i stood gazing up the sky...
up the sky....the clouds were gray...
grey and gloomy... hey!
hey... cheer up guys... its raining...
raining it is indeed....
blup!... oops i made a puddle!
puddle i looked down at and saw the ripples...
ripples that was so effervescent!...
so magnificient! so captivating...
and even more reason to smile...
oops, i made another one and jumped a beat as if i were a little child
little child making the first puddle...
then i thought!... why!
why open the umbrella....
take in the rain... soak in the game...
sing a song and dance a beat...
make the day of the onlookers by your energy!
today it rained... tomorrow! who knows!...
take in the rain... for it may never come!

A proud moment - of a mother

A proud moment - of a mother

tears welled when i first set eyes on you
as i made the connection i felt a whimper in my heart
so happy and so excited that my voice quelched
suddenly stricken with anger as i could not move to hold you dear
but the sight of fragile self lead the way for a tear to fall from my eyes
i reached but in vain...
reached again and managed
managed to brush against your little finger
making my heart yearn for more...
i looked up and saw him.... smiling...
no one else but him... i smiled, however weak...
and made a gesture of thanks and happiness...
the feeling was indescribable....
and as i tried to express more, i slowly passed out...


This scribble is about my experience and the feeling i had when i first saw my baby. After c-section, I was barely able to move and all the laughing gases that i had inhaled earlier to get past my pain was catching up with me as i passed in and out of consciousness. But the experience was great! A tear never escapes, even after years, when i recount that special moment!

The effect of EGO on life

It was small...Na!... it wasn't even there...
Once the moment of recognition grows in you...
It starts to creep....
It was minute... barely visible...
Suppressable... delicate
As you fed it,
It became voluptuous...
Ha... but not in an attractive way
As you nurtured it...It became tall... strong....
Sway it will never...Coz' you aint gonna let it....
The more you feed it...The more you nurture....
The needier it becomes!
The more it grows... the more it builds!
Now! It's Big... It's huge...Yucks!... its creepy....
It bites your mind... dulls your sight...
It makes you heart bulge with need...
Brimm with pride...
And one day!...it will burst...leaving you alone...
The very hand that fed it...Made it strong... Made it Big!
For you will find lonliness...
Sadness... vengence...Fear....
And you will find... no one near...
for that much was the effect of your Ego!
Again the cycle will repeat...
With a new you or with a new who

Overcoming You! Oh! Grief....

Lost in thoughts
There is no reason
Troubled heart
There is no reason
Weeping eyes
There is no reason
Trembling fingers
There is no reason
Words can't utter
There is no reason
Grief...
Clouding thoughts and reasoning
Makes me wonder what good it brings
To lose myself for no reason
Happenings.. can't control...
Beyond control of human intervention
How?... there is no way out?
Prevention or Perseverence to block it...
The way out is two...
Decision needs to be made
to erase, repeal or reduce, if not rid!
Before it engulfs my future...
My life and My soul
and existence!

To Break Free!

Love is a potion... for you
A poison... for me...
It took a while for me to realize...
Ignorance was a bliss and realization a spark...
I prefer the latter even though heart longs for the bliss...
Heart... you are so captured by hatred
And that realization is killing...

Wake... O wake... let the blood gush through your veins..
Soak in the new sun... Lose yourself in the sparkle...
Soon you will realize...

It was nothing...
It is nothing...
And it will never be anything...

The soul will eventually be free...
Free of all sins... all desires... all hatred...
That is a promise, i seek from God.. the almighty...
That One day... I will be free...
O heart.. from you!

Creator! A Favor!

Do me a favor....make me alone again...
a favor...
without you... will i be able to live...
how will i convey this to you...
a favor...make me alone again...

unfinished sentences and lonely nights...
what were they meant to be...
were they to seperate or for us to break free...
lonlines...will i be able to bear...
tears... will i be able to weep..
a favor...do me a favor...
make me alone again...

you are not around but your feel lingers
my elylids still shimmer with your kiss...
fingertips quiver with your touch...
breath breathless with your breath...
tell me a way to erase the thoughts...
a favor...do me a favor...
make me alone again...

the daylight is asleep...
the killing night is silent....
the clouds unaware of my lonliness....
will not be able to bear...without you...
will i be not able to live...
a favor...do me a favor...
make me alone again...

A bad dream or a dream come true...
why is there a conflict of thoughts in my feelings...
why did we come together..
why did we part ways...
is this a punishment or a blessing...
All promises broken and dreams shattered...
maybe a new life with new dreams and new promises...

O creator! a favor...
do me a favor..make me alone again...

Wahi

Realization!

As the wind swayed the pines
I gazed up, into your eyes
Not a word...
Not a word dare I say,
And the time stood afroze
As I took in the glass gaze,
So full of anger and hate!
I realized I had lost!
Lost the battle of faith and prayers!
For I had lost my love
To the game of love itself!
And an even greater realization gripped me
Tore me apart!
O God! even you have penned
Penned that I live
And live with no love at all!